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Hurt

Alone, Not Lonely

I am scared to speak, to talk to you. What if I am not me? What if I create an image unlike myself? What if, when I speak, the words I use, the phrasing and composition, the sound of my... Continue Reading →

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Jealousy

Ever since I was about twelve years old I have experienced jealousy over other people getting to spend more time with their friends than me. This was particularly true when my brother returned to a summer camp, which I had... Continue Reading →

So Casually Cruel In The Name Of Being Honest

Let me preface this with a bit of background. When I was a child I often suffered from excessive guilt over small incidents, sometimes this manifested in a lack of appetite and a lot of crying and self-hatred. I developed... Continue Reading →

Self Improvement

I have had a rough few days this past week, to put it bluntly I went through a break up and have been trying to block out reality a lot. As well of this I have experienced an increase in... Continue Reading →

I Love You, I Love Me

I am sorry for being so hard on you. I know I am, it's not that I'm unaware. It's not that I don't care either, I do, deeply. I want you to be happy, you deserve to be happy. You... Continue Reading →

“Just Take The Nail Out”

I can't just take the fucking nail out! The nail is my university application, my graded unit, two reports, a career. The nail is my personal life, an ex and best friend I lost, a life I lost through my... Continue Reading →

Dermatillomania / CSP

Face sore. Skin dry. Dusty nose. Nails dirty. Shoulders tense. Jaw tight. Head hopeless. Pain, humiliation, shame, pointless, hopeless, embaressment, tension, regret, hatred, loathing, anxious, stress, alone, turmoil, release.

Ask

'I wish you understood what it was like to be me' 'Why didn't you tell me?' 'Because you never asked.'

Emotional Abuse

Listen. Listen. Listen. LISTEN. Why don't you hear me? Why don't you care? Why don't you listen to what I am saying? Why did you have to hurt me SO MUCH? Why did you not you see what you were... Continue Reading →

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