Words Un-Spoken

Here lies the home of my deepest dreams and imagination


Self Harm


Ever since I was about twelve years old I have experienced jealousy over other people getting to spend more time with their friends than me. This was particularly true when my brother returned to a summer camp, which I had... Continue Reading →


So Casually Cruel In The Name Of Being Honest

Let me preface this with a bit of background. When I was a child I often suffered from excessive guilt over small incidents, sometimes this manifested in a lack of appetite and a lot of crying and self-hatred. I developed... Continue Reading →

“Just Take The Nail Out”

I can't just take the fucking nail out! The nail is my university application, my graded unit, two reports, a career. The nail is my personal life, an ex and best friend I lost, a life I lost through my... Continue Reading →


Dermatillomania / CSP

Face sore. Skin dry. Dusty nose. Nails dirty. Shoulders tense. Jaw tight. Head hopeless. Pain, humiliation, shame, pointless, hopeless, embaressment, tension, regret, hatred, loathing, anxious, stress, alone, turmoil, release.



'I wish you understood what it was like to be me' 'Why didn't you tell me?' 'Because you never asked.'


Emotional Abuse

Listen. Listen. Listen. LISTEN. Why don't you hear me? Why don't you care? Why don't you listen to what I am saying? Why did you have to hurt me SO MUCH? Why did you not you see what you were... Continue Reading →


The Nerve-Wracking Thoughts Before Social Interaction

I am terrified. I am scared to be happy, scared to have too much fun, scared to feel so alive. Scared that this is it. Scared of the anticlimax. I am scared of being happy enough not to care. Scared... Continue Reading →



It's all about perspective. Having everything in balance. A perspective too narrow and small and it is easy to become bogged down in the details of a tas; In the minutiae of how you are actually going to fill that... Continue Reading →


Within Grey Skies I Feel

I am so depressed, I feel so down, so trapped, so scared. I can't tell you because I am trapped by my fear. I am scared to talk because I couldn't bear your thoughts, the blame you would put on... Continue Reading →


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